Misguided Christian Nationalists

        It's bad enough that Christianity has become more of a religion than what it's supposed to be, a relationship. Now Christian nationalism seems to have taken over more than ever before, at least here in the U.S. Politics and turning the bible into a weapon to force others to believe and behave as they dictate is, what I believe to be, more palpable. It is reminiscent to the days of Yeshua when He called out the Pharisees and called them brood of vipers. They contaminate and pollute the teachings of the Christ and entangle their political views with what they think is Christ like. They want the government to get involved when it comes to subjects like the LGBTQ+ community, making it so that businesses can refuse to serve them because they should be able to use their religion to dictate how they run a business, which is separate from religion. They want the government to get involved when it comes to abortion, taking away women's right to choose and calling it pro-life. However, it's not about being pro-life, it's about being pro-birth, because after birth, it's suddenly up to the church to help feed them when the family is unable to survive without help. They want the government to get involved when it comes to providing certain hormone medications because their religion tells them that there are only two genders, male and female. Because of their prejudice and ignorance, they don't realize that many people, young and old, take hormone medications for health issues and not solely for transgender care. So, they flip-flop between wanting the government to get involved, using religious freedom, or not wanting the government involved because of their religious freedom and the role the church is supposed to take. And, by the way, as Christians you should know that the true church are the believers, and the head of the church is the Christ. The church is not about brick and mortar; it's just a shame that many have forgotten that.

       What about immigration? Lets' talk about that. Undocumented immigrants need to be rounded up and deported. They are here illegally. Many Christian nationalists are firm on the rule of law when it comes to immigration. However, it is difficult to take them seriously about the rule of law when they voted for a convicted felon and sexual abuser into the white house. With that said, once again we can see the hypocrisy that lives within Christian Nationalism. For the Old Testament lovers, what does the bible say about the stranger (immigrant)? In the book of Exodus, we are told "Do not oppress the foreigner." Leviticus tells us, "The stranger that resides among you shall be to you as the native among you." Side note: I find it interesting how you don't pay attention to the Old Testament, especially Leviticus, when it comes to the stranger, but you're all up in it when you use it to judge and condemn the LGBTQ+ community; however, that's a subject for another time. 

       Now, I'm sure some may want to know where I got the info regarding scripture. I would hope that those of you who claim to be Christians would be able to find the scripture I have provided. However, since many of you obviously don't follow the scripture, look up Exodus 23:9 and Leviticus 19:34. You may also want to check out what Yeshua has said in Matthew 5:42-48 as well as Matthew 23:23. I would share more regarding scripture, especially that of the end times, but I don't think you would be ready for that considering there are some issues understanding the scripture I have shared so far. So that's a subject I may tackle at another time.  

       Do I sound judgmental? Maybe, however, I don't mean to be. I'm simply sharing what I see happening within the Christian community. I am saddened by what I see. As Christians, true followers of the Christ, we are to share the gospel. We are to love our enemies and treat each other with love and respect. The more important matters of the law are "justice, mercy, and faithfulness." Matthew 23:23.

       

It's About Protecting Our Children; I call BULL SHIT.

       Anti Trans Bills are not about protecting our children; it's about fear fueled by ignorance, bigotry, and discrimination. Most anti trans people have no idea what it means to be trans. Most anti trans people have no clue about the difficult steps or phases a trans person has to go through even before surgery takes place; because you (anti trans person) don't really care enough to find out. So based on your ignorance, unwillingness to educate yourself, and your discriminatory attitude, you would prefer to judge and condemn a group of people because they are different and don't fall into your belief regarding sexual orientation. What's even worst, is that many of you have the audacity to call yourselves Christians; using God to spread your hate and bigotry. I'd be surprised if you all would even continue reading, if you haven't dropped off already; willing to continue in ignorance. If you, as an anti trans person, continue to read, I applaud you and respect that you are willing to hear, or in this case read, an opinion and belief that is different than your own.

       Only four months in to 2023 and there have been 528 anti trans bills in 49 states; 50 of those bills have passed; all to supposedly protect our children. Protect them from what exactly; paedophilia? Let's look at some facts; 1 in 3 girls and 1 in 7 boys are sexually abused and 90% of those offenders are known to the child. 80 - 90% of the offenders are male, 10-20% of the offenders are female and about 40% of the offenders are children themselves, under the age of 12. (RAAC - Race Against Abuse of Children Everywhere) These offenders are straight, not trans or any other sexuality but heterosexual. If the offenders were from the lgbtq+ community, we both know that would be made loud and clear. And let's not forget the number of sexual abuse where the abuser is clergy, church staff, volunteers, etc.. You can look that up yourself. Again, no lgbtq+ offenders mentioned. What you will find about trans people is a great amount of violence perpetrated against the trans community. 

       I call BULL SHIT; this is not about protecting children from the trans community. If you really want to protect children, do something about the millions of children in America that go hungry. Do something about the millions of children that are homeless in America. If this was about protecting children, you would not rip trans kids away from their families and add them to the approximate 443,000 children already in the foster care system. No, this is not about protecting our children. the 528 anti trans legislation is not about protecting our children. It's about persecuting a group of people whose lifestyle you don't agree with; it's about taking away the right to liberty and the pursuit of happiness from a group of people you hate so much, that you are not even willing to educate yourselves about. I won't even go into your misuse of God to judge the lgbtq+ community. That I will do in another post. 

       Though I am not a trans person, I am a part of the lgbtq+ community. When I first started hearing about the trans community, I did not fully understand, but I did take the time to try and educate myself and I am still learning. It takes less energy to learn than to hate.

        

       

Self-Care Toolbox

       In a previous blog I spoke about suicide and mental health. In that blog I mentioned a "toolbox" that can be used to help when we fall into a bad head space or in crisis. This toolbox is filled with what works best for the individual; we have control over what gets put in this toolbox because we know what works best for us. Not every situation is the same and because we are all individuals, not every tool works the same for each person. Self-Care is exactly that; what we do to take care of ourselves and deal with our situations in a way that will help keep us calm and safe.

       In order to build (fill) your toolbox, you first have to recognize what it looks like when you are well and what it looks like when you are not. For example: when I am well, I have more energy to do things, I take care of my grooming, hygiene, and I sleep well at night. When I am not well, I don't shower every day, I don't feel like getting out of bed, and I don't have the energy to go out or talk to anyone.                    Part of gathering tools for your toolbox is also recognizing what makes you happy; what makes you feel good. For me, I love working on art projects, reading about subject matters that interest me. I enjoy listening to music; especially contemporary Christian music because it lifts me up. I like to keep up with my friends and family whether it be by phone, text, or a visit when possible. All of the things that you enjoy and that make you feel good are essential for your toolbox. Also, one of the most important things you need is a good and solid support system. How many people in your life can you truly count on? How many people can you honestly call when you feel like you are at your lowest and they are there for you; to be with you and to listen to you? 

       When I was learning about how to build my toolbox, I was told I should pick 5 people that would be a good support. I found that very difficult because I am very picky about who I allow in my life; this is also a good practice in staying safe and caring for your well- being. So, I didn't have 5 people that I felt comfortable enough with to call when I needed help; but I did have 3. The reason it's important to have more than one person, if possible, is because we don't want to keep calling on the same person for support if we normally need allot of it. We don't want to bog that one person down to the point where they start to resent us; I hope that makes sense. Anyway, I spoke to those I chose to be my support and to help me stay safe and well by being there for me when I needed someone to talk to or even just be with in order to not be alone when I was having a bad day. After they agreed, I knew I was set with a good support system and yes, they have been. Therapy has also been a help for me and may be something for you to think about; to see if it's something that works for you.

       Now, you have examples of what you may look like when you are not well and what you look like when you are well. Again, it is different for everyone. Recognizing the "red flags" is important so that you can dip into that toolbox and start taking care of yourself. When my depression starts to go south and I recognize the signs that I am not doing well, I go to my toolbox and pull out what I feel can help me. I might pull out some art supplies and work on a project to help me focus more on something I enjoy and less on the negative thoughts or feelings I experience at the time. I may not feel very artistic that day and so I pull out my music and listen to it as I choose something else to keep busy and focus on; it could be the dishes or making my bed; hell, sometimes it's listening to music while I work on an art project. Again, I choose the tools I want to use that I know will help me stabilize my depression and get me back on track to feeling well. I may be having such a bad day or week that I need to go to my support people and call a friend to talk to. Build a toolbox that works for you. Think about who you have in your life that you can truly count on to call when you need support.  

       One last thing that is very important to know and understand. Depending on the person and situation, you may find ourselves in such a bad place when nothing in your toolbox is going to help. You may be in a place where you feel so lost and feel like you are in a hole that you can't get out of; maybe even feel like you don't want to live anymore. This is when you are in crisis and if that happens, there is still help. Of course, you can call 911. There is also the following you can do: call the suicide/crisis hotline at 1-800-273-8255. You can also text Hello to 741741. If you are interested on getting information for Support Groups or any other information regarding mental health, you can check out the National Alliance on Mental Illness at www.nami.org. 

       I know this was allot, but if this helps even one person, I am a happy camper 😊 

       

Suicide; It Needs to Be Discussed

        The subject of Mental Health has become very important to me; more so in the last ten years or so. I hadn't truly realized the stigma that comes with a diagnosis regarding mental health until my own mental health started to decline. There are many different types of mental health illnesses, especially under the umbrella of depression. Too many people misunderstand depression. Many think that being depressed is just feeling blue because the day didn't go quite the way we wanted; you got a low grade on a test or failed a test. Maybe a relationship has gone south and you're feeling heartbroken and don't want to do anything or go anywhere. Sure, these can make a person feel depressed, but eventually, you get better grades, you pass that test, or eventually, the pain from the loss of that relationship starts to decrease and you're able to move on. Depression (clinical depression) doesn't go away; it only becomes somewhat manageable whether with, or even without medication depending on the diagnosis and severity of the depression. Therapy is important and so is a good support system in family and friends. I have learned that those of us who have mental health diagnosis, can build what's called a self-care toolbox to help during difficult times. I will discuss the toolbox in a future blog. For now, I want to discuss the subject of suicide.

       The subject of suicide, which has allot to do with depression, is just as taboo as depression itself. It is hard to talk about the reasons behind one's decision to die by suicide. It's easier to just say that choosing suicide is a selfish act or that choosing suicide shows how weak a person is. But is that true? Is choosing death by suicide selfish and weak? Or is it more like we are being selfish because we never bothered to understand why one would choose suicide, and we are weak because we are the ones that can't handle the truth behind the thoughts or actions regarding suicide? That's something to think about. I cannot discuss the reasons behind someone else's choice toward suicide. I can only discuss my own thoughts of suicide and my own reasons behind attempts to take my own life. Even if I can help only one person have an understanding about suicidal thoughts or ideations, I will be a happy camper. Before I say any more, please understand that I will not share how I have attempted because the "how" is not important. It's the "why" that's important.

       As someone who suffers with Major depressive disorder, among other diagnosis, I can tell you that there have been a few times I have wanted to die by suicide and have made attempts to do so. My last attempt was in August of 2015. Believe it or not, as is true for most, I did not want to die; I still don't. What I wanted, and sometimes still want, is for the pain to go away; the daily physical pain due to some physical health issues, but more so because of the emotional pain I deal with on a daily basis. Suicide, for me, was not about dying; it was about stopping the pain because there didn't seem to be any other way to do that. I felt tired; tired of fighting, tired of not feeling like I was good enough, tired of so many things that I actually had no control over. I felt like everyone would be better off without me and that I would be better off dead. Telling someone they are selfish for feeling this way does not help at all. In fact, it just makes things worst. And, a person who is judgmental about it is generally someone that should not be in my life. A person who contemplates suicide needs support, not judgment. If you cannot provide that support, well, I guess you should really take a look at your definition of friendship or family...... Just sayin 😶

       If anyone who is reading this feels like they are at that point where nothing else but dying seems to be the best answer, stop. I know it's hard and I know that it seems like there is nowhere and no one to turn to. But please don't. I can tell you from experience that there is help and that, if given time, it really does get better. Will it ever be perfect? No; but it can get better. Will the pain fully go away? Possibly not; but there are ways to work through it. Do I still have suicidal ideations? Yes; but I have learned how to work through it and take each day as it comes, one day at a time and sometimes, one moment at a time; it really can get better. I hope this has been helpful.

       There is support and different programs that be helpful. The National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) is a great resource. They have been a great help for me and I am a member of the organization as well. I have taken many different types of training for self-care as well as training to provide support for others.  Check it out........ www.nami.org. 

       

Where is your faith part 2 of 2

       Faith, defined in Hebrews 11:1, "is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen". What does that mean? It means that faith is believing that what we hope for, what we pray for, we actually have it even before it is manifested. For example, though I don't have the initial funds to get a much needed car, I will pray for it, hope for it and believe that, somehow, God will make it so that I get a car. The hope is for a car. The evidence of things not seen is my faith and total belief that God will provide a vehicle for me and thank Him for answered prayer; the evidence not seen. No one fully understands God's timing and so we have to believe in Him that our hope will be manifested and hold on to that faith and be patient for God's blessing. Then, when least expected, God answers that prayer, that thing hoped for. God, through His Spirit, places a call upon someone who is getting rid of a perfectly good vehicle and that person gift's you that car, free and clear. The evidence of things not seen is the work of God through the actions of the Spirit and an obedient person of faith. I know, sounds pretty crazy doesn't it? Like, do things like this really happen? These kinds of things do happen; it did happen. This gift of a car actually happened to me. There have been so many blessings that the Lord has provided and I am ever thankful to God for keeping all of His promises.

       As adults, it is very difficult to find that childlike faith within us. That child went away a long time ago and had been covered up with life's experiences both good and bad. However, that child is still within us and that faith, that childlike faith is definitely attainable. Don't get me wrong, when we hope for or pray for something, it is not realistic to think that the answer will come right away all of the time. Though there are times when they do, more often, we have to ait and that is when our faith is tested; that's when we need to trust Him and know that He is working to answer your prayer. My prayer for the car came within several months. My prayer to find my biological father came after 32 years of searching and praying. The point is that we have to hold on to our faith and believe that God will answer our prayers and He will make sure to do so right on time. The Apostle Paul mentions that God deals to each of us a measure of faith (Romans12:3), so we need to learn how to hone in on that faith and believe that no matter how small we think our faith is, God can still use it. So where is your faith? Dig down deep and find that inner child and you may find that measure of faith that's needed to keep hope alive and to allow God to manifest that which you hope. God is awesome at that.

     

     

Where is your faith? Part 1

       There was a time when Jesus and his disciples were on a boat. As Jesus slept, a storm approached and as it grew stronger causing water to enter the boat, the men feared for their lives. They woke Jesus up asking that He save them because their lives were surely in danger. When Jesus woke up He asked why the men were so afraid and said "O you of little faith"; then Jesus stood up, rebuked the storm and then, the storm was gone, The guys were in awe and were like, "who can this be that even the winds and the sea obey Him?" (Matthew 8:23-26)
       There was another time when the disciples were out on the boat. Jesus was not with them at that time, but eventually, they saw Jesus walking on the water toward them. They freaked a bit and thought maybe it was a ghost, but Jesus spoke out to let them know that it was indeed Him. Peter called out to Jesus and asked to prove that it was indeed him and told Jesus to command that Peter too walked on the water. So Jesus did, and Peter walked on water; until a wave came and became afraid and started to sink. Jesus pulled him up to safety and once again said "O you of little faith, why did you doubt?"
(Matthew 14:25-31)

       Doubt and Fear have been the enemy of God and His children from the very beginning as read in Genesis regarding the fall of man, Adam & Eve disobeying God. They are strong adversaries and more often then not, doubt and fear find a way into our hearts causing us to miss out on the blessings God has for us and miss out on being witness, through personal experience, to the power and never broken promises of God. Doubt says miracles don't happen anymore. Fear says I'm not good enough and will never be good enough for God to bless me. Let me tell you something about doubt and fear; they are the spawn of lies which smoothly slithers out of the mouth of God's enemy. There is a weapon that is available to all of us that can and will defeat the lies of doubt and fear; and that weapon is faith. It's not just any faith, but the faith of a child.
       A child's faith is unwavering, it's raw; a child has perfectly blind faith. When the disciples asked Jesus who was the greatest in the kingdom of heaven, Jesus pointed out a child and said "unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, who ever humbles himself as this little child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven..." (Matthew 18:1-4). Obviously a grown adult cannot magically transform into a child. However, as adults we need to be as humble as a child, unconditionally loving like a child, fully trusting like a child and as faithful as a child to God. That means believing in and having faith in God; as a child would. Where is your faith; where on the line of adulthood does your ability to be like a child lay?

Where the heck is God & why is He doing this?

       During this time of uncertainty it is easy to become afraid and unsure of the future. Social distancing a key to staying safe even though there are many who do not care to follow the rules. Hording and selfishness causing doubt about humanity's ability to come together to combat an invisible enemy. Thank God, however, for those who do what is necessary to keep each other safe; not only to the point of losing their jobs, but even to the point of losing their own lives. Often, it is times like these, because of fear and anger, that many ask where is God and why is He doing this.
       Make no mistake, God is still here and He is not the one to blame; though it is easy to blame Him because we don't want to take responsibility for our own actions. Blaming God is easy; look what happened with Adam and Eve. Eve chose to listen to the serpent and Adam chose to listen to Eve and then Adam had the audacity to try and place fault and blame on both Eve and even on God when Adam said to God "the woman whom you gave to be with me, she gave me of the tree and I ate" (Genesis 3:11). The fact of the matter is that both Adam and Eve were at fault for making the choice to disobey God. The same holds true even today. Man is free to make decisions, even bad decisions; and when he/she has to live with the consequences of their actions, they want to blame God. We are where we are today because of the actions, or inaction, of man, not God.

       Anyone who truly knows God and has a relationship with the Father, I pray, will remember His truth and His promises. Yes, I include myself because I too can fall into the thoughts created by fear. I am by no means perfect nor claim to be. So this is just as much for me as it may be for many of you. Regardless of what is going on in the world we must remember that God is always with us and will strengthen us and uphold us in His righteous right hand (Isaiah 41:10).  He promised to never leave nor forsake us (Hebrews 13:5). We either believe in His word and His promises or we don't; there is no in between. We are hot or we are cold, but we cannot be Luke warm and straddle the fence; (Revelation 3:15-16; 1 John 2:15-16). We have to remember whom we serve and whom we worship. We have to remember that God is not a man and so does not lie or change His mind about anything that He says (Numbers 23:19). So during this time of uncertainty, we have to remember to do our part and pray; pray for those who have chosen to fight the good fight for all of us. Pray for them and their families. Pray for those who are forced to work though unessential workers; for those who are forced to work because they have no choice. Pray for our leaders, whether we like them or not. Pray because God hears us. Pray to God the Father, by the power of the name Jesus the Christ and the action by that power in the movement of the Holy Spirit..............
Amen.